Thursday, July 24, 2014

Blog Hop - This is All I Have to Give

It's so funny how God works sometimes.  I've mentioned that this Proverbs 31 study came to my email right when I needed it.  Well, for a while now, I've been feeling like such a failure in everything I do, but especially this past week. Then, what is one of the topics this week, but 'This is All I Have to Give'.  I think I said those exact words to Chris just a couple of days ago.  Sometimes, as a mom, especially a working mom, you feel pulled in so many directions.  You miss all those sweet moments with your kids while you're working and then by the time you get home, the trials of the day have you so worn down that you can't enjoy the moments you have left before bedtime.  I, personally, have such guilt that decisions I've made are what is keeping my kids from having the life that I would love for them to have. You know, if I wouldn't have gotten credit cards, I'd have more money for family trips, etc.  These little things can eat away at you if you let them. 

In my conversation with Chris, I was telling him that I'm just tired and I feel like I'm at my breaking point.  I don't feel like I can handle much more.  Not only that, the things that I am trying to do - pay off debt, pass the CPA exam, lose weight, make memories that my kids will remember forever - seems like those never happen either.  I feel like I try to do so much that nothing gets done.  

  • Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails - Proverbs 19:21
  • Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed - Proverbs 16:3
Lysa states, "Remember that everything that happens to you is first filtered through God's hand.  What you might see as distractions, God might see as divine appointments."  Whew!  That puts things into perspective.  That will make you take a step back and realize, maybe I'm not by myself at all.  I don't need to shoulder the burden alone.  So, this week, I'm going to try to take a step back and enjoy the here and now.  I don't need to compare my life to those around me.  God has created me to be the moma to my four wonderful babies.  I'm the Mom that He had planned for them and that's good enough for me!


P31 OBS Blog Hop

2 comments:

Karen said...

Beautifully written, Erika. Blessings to you and your wonderful family! Karen

Blogger Loves The King said...

Love your beautiful thoughts Erika. Sometimes we get caught up in that comparison trap. Loved it when you said "enjoy the here and now". Words of wisdom there. For me my favorite saying is "make the moments matter". I, too worked and found it so hard raising a family and working and then I went back to college with my kids, and then they are gone and you work and take care of moments. Life always seemed difficult, but once I decided to make the moments matter and savor the moments life was so different and how glad I am now that my mom and dad are gone. Thanks for sharing. Debbie W. (Proverbs 31 Ministries OBS Team)